wow, it kinda sucks when you build yourself up for something and it doesn't turn out in your favor. i was so convinced that i'd actually succeed with something special to me, and it gets snatched up by the one to my left- so close.

maybe i'll recover, or maybe nothing will happen, and i'll be just as stagnant as i was five years ago.

i try so hard, you know?
when's it going to be my turn?